Big anticipation

When i was about. . . well i don’t actually remember how old i was. But anyway when I was younger I remember when my godsister was getting all excited for her prom. I remember her showing me her prom pictures and how wonderful she looked and how much fun it looked like she was having. From then on I couldn’t wait for my own prom. I couldn’t wait to look beautiful in a long gown with my hair done all pretty with my date. Having a great time and take a bunch of pictures with everyone.

Well, in just one week I will be attending my one and only prom. I didnt think that it was going to be this stressful. I had dress trouble and date trouble. And not to mention how expensive it is! Prom dresses aren’t cheap, neither are shoes, getting your hair and nails done, and paying for tickets. But to be quite honest I have been taking the cheap way with prom. Its the best way i think. No uses spending hundreds of dollars on one night. But anyway my prom problems have seemed to solved and everything looks like its going on the right track.

My dress is amazing!!!!! It is red and has silver sparkles, It makes my boobs look really nice. There’s a slit in the front too. The back is my favorite, the straps are criss-crossed and they have sparkles on them and it shows my back.  I am so in love with it ( I will post pictures when i write about my prom experience). My shoes are the best too, they go perfect with my dress. I just don’t know what i’m going to do with my hair or if i should wear makeup or not.

But hopefully prom turns out great. I want to take a bunch of pictures. Dance until my feet feel like they are going to bleed, and have a great time with my date. Until next time…. ❤






My Italian Experience

So life has been GREAT! I just go back to America after visiting Italy and Rome and I can now start blogging again because I finally have a new laptop! It feels good to let my fingers linger on the keyboard as i type my life away. I dont know what it is but something about it gives me great joy. So as I have just said i have just gotten back to America from Italy and Rome and let me just say that i had the time of my life. It was like a dream. I did all of the touristy things as well as experienced what it would life is like to be a resident. so basically now I will allow you to look into my experience

The first two days in Europe were spent in Rome. There i visited the Coliseum and the Vatican. Both of which are beautiful. In both places the streets were filled with thousands of tourist and vendors. It was amazing to see that many people all amazed by the lovely art that surrounds them. Its amazing, it kind of puts you in a daze. You are standing in the middle of ancient history. Its just an amazing feeling. Due to some issues i was not able to go into the coliseum, but i did however get to go inside of the Vatican. It was quite amazing…. And i know that i am using the word amazing a lot but there is no other word to describe it. The vatican was covered from the floor to the ceiling with beautiful art. Everywhere that you looked you saw a beautiful piece of art. It would be enjoyable to anyone. At first I was worried that i wasn’t going to like it because I personally am not big on religion and i thought that it was going to be all religion based but it was nothing like what I thought it was going to be.. it was 1000000 times better.

I also went to see the leaning tower of Pisa. it was so cool. I went all the way to the top. The amount of stairs was ridiculous and the stairs were so slippery. It also didn’t help that there were indents from so many people walking on the same part of the step. I took, and failed, at taking those goofy pictures when it looks like you are holding up the tower. But i did get a really nice picture of the view from the top of the tower and at the bottom of the tower looking up. It was there that I saw the only McDonalds that i seen in Italy. I didnt eat anything from there but i did look at the menu. There wasn’t really anything out of the ordinary except that they have mozzarella sticks and pasta salads.

While in Rome I ate only foods that i have never heard of, I wanted to “do as the romans do”.

The food was very different but I must say that i enjoyed about 95% of it. But there was this one meat, it was terrible. The smell was repulsive and it tasted like it had been dipped in toilet water! I don’t remember what it was called but i hope i never encounter it again. But then i had this amazing fruit, again i’m not sure what the fruit is called, but it was so good. The skin was like a plum but you peel it off and then you eat the inside and there is a pit in it. It is sour and tangy but soo good. I absolutely loved them. And of course i have a new love for gelato. I had gelato about 2-3 times a day. I explored all flavors and i must say that there was no nasty flavors. I mean some flavors were better than others but none of them were nasty. I had apple pie, chocolate, strawberry, vanilla, bananas, and so many more flavors. I pointed out these flavors because they were my favorite. I have to say that I think that the pizza here in America is better than italian pizza. I mean its good but i prefer the pizza here.

I used a lot of different transportation. I rode on a boat to go to two different islands for shopping and lunch/dinner. I also rode the subway a lot while in rome. It kind of reminded me of New York. Then i rode on the train a lot, like to go to Florence and Lucca. I also did a lot of traveling on a bus, which i am so used to since i have been on many long road trips on a bus. of course i took an airplane to get there and back, well actually i took a lot of airplanes due to the layovers. Then of course i rode in cars. But a lot of the time we walked to do whatever we had to do. Everyone walked or they rode a bike from children to the elderly. It was good to see people out walking and getting their exercise. i personally dont see that much here in America.

I met some really great people in Italy. One of them was the girl that i was staying with. She is such an great person. She has such a great personality she is so welcoming and sweet. I will never forget her. I will always remember sitting at the kitchen table and on the couch and talking about just anything. Now we will have to settle for facetime and whatsapp. But she is definitely a life long friend. There was another girl she was goofy, and shy but once you know her she is wild. She taught me all the bad words in Italian and all of the inappropriate phrases. There was another girl that was sort of a fashionista. She was beautiful and had such a great personality. Her family was great too, they really seemed to like me. But not more than my host family. They were the greatest. They all seemed to love each other so much and they were so happy to have me staying with them. I will never forget how we sat at the dinner table every night and we would all talk and laugh. They were some of the nicest people that I have ever met. Then i met this boy he was great but it seems like he had a lot going on. I wish that i could’ve helped him because he really had a bad outlook on life. he needed someone to show him that there was more to life. There were many other great people that i met in Italy too but these few really made an impression not only in my memory but in my heart.

I wish that i could’ve spent more time in Italy. I feel that 2 weeks wasn’t enough. I hope to go back some time in the near future. And stay for longer this time. This experience made me want to travel the world even more. I now know that in the future i want to travel the world because there is so much more to see in the world besides America.

Now that i am back to my real home I have many things to take care of. I have to get a prom dress, and i don’t have much time because prom is in 2 weeks. I also have to worry about my college stuff and figuring out how i am going to pay for college. But i also have some exciting things coming up! Prom, even though it is stressful now,is going to be exciting. Then i have my 18th birthday coming up, which i am very excited for, even though i don’t have any plans. Then i have senior trip and graduation. So even though i have a lot to do i will also have a lot of rewards.



Dear my guardian angel

Dear NenNen,

Boy do I miss you! I miss hearing your laugh and hearing your voice! I think about you all the time, every little thing reminds me of you. It’s been a year now since you’ve been gone, but I have still have yet to truly understand what that means. Sometimes I dream of you, dreams so vivid that they actually feel like they are happening.

I feel like in the couple of weeks prior to you leaving is I didn’t get to spend enough time with you. I wish I could have just one more sleep over with you. We could sing a bunch of old songs to each other, your the only one who tolerated my horrible voice. We could watch wizard of oz, Cinderella, King Kong, and dream girls like we always used to. And before we go to sleep I could grease you hair, with loads of grease, just like you like it. And afterward we would just lay in bed and laugh and giggle at little things until one of us finally falls asleep.

Your missing out on so many things i wanted you to see. I can’t believe that you won’t be there to celebrate my 18 birthday, or to see me all dressed up for prom, or see me walk the stage. Then again, you won’t be missing out at all because I know you will be there on spirit.

Love you and miss you more than anything my guardian angel.

Rest in paradise



And then there was change

I know that I was supposed to post a couple of days ago, but of course I can never do anything on time.

So how did my yes day go? Not as good as I thought it would be. For starters it wasn’t a good day to begin with and I even forgot a couple times that I was supposed to be saying yes to everything ….

Saying yes lead to me singing karaoke in gym class, which was actually really fun. owing someone cookies, which they probably will never receive. And of course, frustration and confusion to the people wanting serious answers to their questions. But that was it, I realized that saying yes to everything wasn’t actually that bad. (:

I have decided to change up how I do this “activity” or whatever you wanna call it. For starters I’m not always going to be saying yes every time, I’ll pick a different word or phrase sometimes. That’s really the only thing that I have decided, at the moment, to change but I’m sure as time goes by and I keep doing this I will keep making changes… ( I can never make up my mind.)

Hopefully I can get this thing to actually work out. Any ideas ???

Again, I’m Sorry for not being able to keep my word and post on time.

Oh and I have decided to make my blog a bit more personal so beware of the personal post soon to come .


Deepest darkest secret (;

Okay so maybe this isn’t the big reveal of my deepest darkest secret , but it’s just as important. :p

I have decided to add something to my blog to make it bit more interesting, at least that’s the goal. ( let me know if you like the idea )

So here’s how it goes. once a week( a different day each week) Im going to answer YES for all yes or no questions I receive for the entire day. Then Ill write about if it affected my day in a major way or If anyone picked up on what I was doing , and if they took advantage when they noticed… And all the good stuff…

I’m not usually going to tell you when I’m gonna do it , but since it’s the first time ill let you know on the secret. (;
Tomorrow is my first YES DAY !
Stay tuned !

Wish me luck (:


Chris Brown and A Nation of Raped Boys

Olivia A. Cole

chris brown rape

Yesterday I read an article in which Chris Brown discussed the age at which he lost his virginity. He was 8, he says, and the girl was 14 or 15. He mentions that in “the country” he and his cousins watched a lot of porn, so by age 8 he was “hot to trot.” Maybe so. Children can have sexual feelings at 8, but whether they can consent to sex at age 8 is an entirely different subject. Sex at age 8 is rape, especially given the fact that the girl involved was significantly older, a teenager. Chris Brown was raped, but to hear him tell it, that experience was positive, healthy. Something to brag about. “At eight, being able to do it, it kind of preps you for the long run, so you can be a beast at it.”

And the worst part? This isn’t the first time I’ve…

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50 things to do before I die

1) Visit Alaska
– I’ve always wanted to go to Alaska, once when it when it is light and once when it’s dark, just because I think it will be a great experience.

2) Visit Paris
-Who doesn’t want to go to Paris ? I mean it’s the best ! French speaking people all around you, crepes, beautiful scenery… What’s not to love?

3) Own a Great Dane
– After watching the movie 7 pounds I have wanted a Great Dane . They are really such amazing dogs !

4) Go skydiving
– I have a serious fear of falling, so the only way to get over that fear is to fall. So why not fall from the sky after jumping off of a plane? Sounds good to me !

5) Record a song written by ME !
– I am not a good singer nor am I a song writer, however I would love to do both… Even of it’s only once.

6) Swim with the dolphins
-I love swimming… I think dolphins are the cutest… And I want to take a picture in the water with one after a good swim, of me kissing it’s nose. Is that really too much to ask for?

7) Ride a horse
-Just something I have always wanted to do . Horses are such beautiful animals, besides their smell.

8) Find my true love
– This has to be on everyone’s list. I don’t want to die unhappy and lonely. I want someone to cherish life with (:

9) Deliver at least 50 babies
-What better than bringing new life into the world? Nothing at all! Considering that I want to be an obstetrician I will probably deliver more than 50 babies, but hey you gotta start small.

10) Have the wedding I always dreamed of
– which is just a small wedding with immediate friends and family, nothing to big but at the same time extra special in my eyes.

11) See the sun rise
– I would love to lie on the beach and watch the sun rise with someone special to me. I have heard many stories about how it’s such a beautiful sight.

12) See the sun set
– just like the sun rise I would like to lie on a beach with someone that is special and watch the sun set. I would like to watch the sun rise and set all in the same day.

13) Have a garden
– I would love to have a garden in my backyard! In it I would grow cucumbers, squash, tomatoes, and maybe even some flowers.

14) Go to the place where the lights touch the earth
– when I was little I had a slight obsession with the Disney movie brother bear. It was in that movie that I had first seen the place where the lights touch the earth, otherwise known as the northern lights, and since then I have always wanted to witness It with my own eyes.

15) Visit great wall of china
– just for the experience, and the workout lol.

16) Watch the ball drop in Times Square and kiss someone at midnight
– cheesy right, but I’m a hopeless romantic what can I say? Plus it’s the perfect way to start the new year.

17) Visit all 50 states
– not only do I want to visit them I also want to learn atleast 25 things about each state. I feel I need to know more about my country.

18) Be an extra in a movie
– I don’t ever want to be famous, due to the lack of privacy. But I would love to be able to say that I was in a movie … So being and extra is perfect for me.

19) Visit Spain
– such a beautiful place based on all the movies, stories, and pictures that I have seen. I can’t wait to see it all with my own eyes!

20) Send a message in a bottle
– just something I think will be fun to do. The message would have to be something spectacular, even though it will have no purpose.

21) Shower under a waterfall
– a weak one of course. Just for the wonderful experience.

22) Write my will
– just something everyone should do before they die.

23) Donate money to charity and put my name on something
– maybe for a scholarship of something ? I’m not sure, I just want it to be something that will actually be helpful.

24) Kiss someone I’ve only just met
– that’s just the dare devil in me (;

25) Make love on the kitchen floor
– writing that kind of makes me chuckle. It really doesn’t have to be on the kitchen floor, anywhere odd will do.

26) Fly in hot air balloon
– I would love to float around and not have to look through a plane window to see the ground from the sky.

27) Receive a dozen roses
– just so that I can feel special and loved ❤

28) Throw a dart on a map and go where ever it lands
– isn't this such a good idea? Hopefully the place is actually safe and secure.

29) Learn sign language
– I have always wanted to learn sign language but never had someone to teach me. Plus, I really think I'm going to be deaf when I get old because I already have really bad hearing, so I want to be prepared.

30) Become a godmother
– I really don't have a legit reason, I just really want to be a godmother one day.

31) Ride a mechanical bull
– I'm a taurus, which is a bull, and I'm scared of falling so Id be holding on so tight I don't think I would fall. I just want to see if I can actually handle it. Plus, I've heard it's lots of fun!

32) Slow dance in the rain
– there goes the hopeless romantic in me again.

33) Carve mine and my soul mates initials in a tree
– so that when get older and have children we can show them the tree and tell them " this is OUR tree"

34) Save a life
– which I might have already done without knowing.

35) Count my blessings
– literally , I want to sit down and make a numbered list of all my blessings to see what I take for granted and learn to them cherish more.

36) Write down and highlight each day for a year
– I want to do this so that the following year i can read the corresponding days and see how might life has changed from that exact day just a year before.

37) Float in Dead Sea
– I just want to be able float on the water and read a book and not have to worry about "going under".

38) Learn about astrology
– just because I find it interesting, and always say that I want to learn more but never actually do.

39) Learn to play chess
– to keep my brain in check of course. Plus I heard it's really hard, and I would like to see what's so challenging about it.

40) Go to macys thanksgiving day parade
– every year on thanksgiving morning I watch the macys thanksgiving parade on tv and wish I was actually there in person because I know that it's not the same.

41) Learn to yodel
– just so that I can annoy everyone with me talent.

42) Go to a nude beach
– I would love to get a perfect tan! The only way for that to happen is to tan naked.

43) Write a letter to future self
– just a short letter to tell myself how much I love myself and how proud I am of myself . And how much I believe in me! A reminder for when I'm having a bad day.

44) Attempt to break a world record
– just to see if I can actually break the record. If I can that would be awesome, but even if I can't at least I tried.

45) Say yes to everything for a day
– inspired by the movie yes man. Hopefully it doesn't backfire.

46) Go on a road trip with no destination
– i just want to get in the car with one or two other people and just drive and see where it leads me.

47) Visit England
– so that I can hopefully pick up and accent … That's really the only reason.

48) Read the bible
– I don't really know much about the bible, but I would like to learn.

49) Find out how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop
– I can never actually test the theory because I always end up biting it. But I do want to know the exact answer.

50) Share life story
– sparing no details!! I want to sit down with anyone, could even be a stranger, like in the movie Forrest Gump and tell them everything that has happened in my life so far…. Any takers ?

As I accomplish these goals or add new ones I will keep you updated. Well I hope I didn't bore you to death . Thank you for reading . It really means a lot!!!!