Dear my guardian angel

Dear NenNen,

Boy do I miss you! I miss hearing your laugh and hearing your voice! I think about you all the time, every little thing reminds me of you. It’s been a year now since you’ve been gone, but I have still have yet to truly understand what that means. Sometimes I dream of you, dreams so vivid that they actually feel like they are happening.

I feel like in the couple of weeks prior to you leaving is I didn’t get to spend enough time with you. I wish I could have just one more sleep over with you. We could sing a bunch of old songs to each other, your the only one who tolerated my horrible voice. We could watch wizard of oz, Cinderella, King Kong, and dream girls like we always used to. And before we go to sleep I could grease you hair, with loads of grease, just like you like it. And afterward we would just lay in bed and laugh and giggle at little things until one of us finally falls asleep.

Your missing out on so many things i wanted you to see. I can’t believe that you won’t be there to celebrate my 18 birthday, or to see me all dressed up for prom, or see me walk the stage. Then again, you won’t be missing out at all because I know you will be there on spirit.

Love you and miss you more than anything my guardian angel.

Rest in paradise

Xoxoxo
Tajee

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And then there was change

I know that I was supposed to post a couple of days ago, but of course I can never do anything on time.

So how did my yes day go? Not as good as I thought it would be. For starters it wasn’t a good day to begin with and I even forgot a couple times that I was supposed to be saying yes to everything ….

Saying yes lead to me singing karaoke in gym class, which was actually really fun. owing someone cookies, which they probably will never receive. And of course, frustration and confusion to the people wanting serious answers to their questions. But that was it, I realized that saying yes to everything wasn’t actually that bad. (:

I have decided to change up how I do this “activity” or whatever you wanna call it. For starters I’m not always going to be saying yes every time, I’ll pick a different word or phrase sometimes. That’s really the only thing that I have decided, at the moment, to change but I’m sure as time goes by and I keep doing this I will keep making changes… ( I can never make up my mind.)

Hopefully I can get this thing to actually work out. Any ideas ???

Again, I’m Sorry for not being able to keep my word and post on time.

Oh and I have decided to make my blog a bit more personal so beware of the personal post soon to come .

Xoxoxo
Tajee

Deepest darkest secret (;

Okay so maybe this isn’t the big reveal of my deepest darkest secret , but it’s just as important. :p

I have decided to add something to my blog to make it bit more interesting, at least that’s the goal. ( let me know if you like the idea )

So here’s how it goes. once a week( a different day each week) Im going to answer YES for all yes or no questions I receive for the entire day. Then Ill write about if it affected my day in a major way or If anyone picked up on what I was doing , and if they took advantage when they noticed… And all the good stuff…

I’m not usually going to tell you when I’m gonna do it , but since it’s the first time ill let you know on the secret. (;
Tomorrow is my first YES DAY !
Stay tuned !

Wish me luck (:

Xoxo
Tajee

Chris Brown and A Nation of Raped Boys

Olivia A. Cole

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Yesterday I read an article in which Chris Brown discussed the age at which he lost his virginity. He was 8, he says, and the girl was 14 or 15. He mentions that in “the country” he and his cousins watched a lot of porn, so by age 8 he was “hot to trot.” Maybe so. Children can have sexual feelings at 8, but whether they can consent to sex at age 8 is an entirely different subject. Sex at age 8 is rape, especially given the fact that the girl involved was significantly older, a teenager. Chris Brown was raped, but to hear him tell it, that experience was positive, healthy. Something to brag about. “At eight, being able to do it, it kind of preps you for the long run, so you can be a beast at it.”

And the worst part? This isn’t the first time I’ve…

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50 things to do before I die

1) Visit Alaska
– I’ve always wanted to go to Alaska, once when it when it is light and once when it’s dark, just because I think it will be a great experience.

2) Visit Paris
-Who doesn’t want to go to Paris ? I mean it’s the best ! French speaking people all around you, crepes, beautiful scenery… What’s not to love?

3) Own a Great Dane
– After watching the movie 7 pounds I have wanted a Great Dane . They are really such amazing dogs !

4) Go skydiving
– I have a serious fear of falling, so the only way to get over that fear is to fall. So why not fall from the sky after jumping off of a plane? Sounds good to me !

5) Record a song written by ME !
– I am not a good singer nor am I a song writer, however I would love to do both… Even of it’s only once.

6) Swim with the dolphins
-I love swimming… I think dolphins are the cutest… And I want to take a picture in the water with one after a good swim, of me kissing it’s nose. Is that really too much to ask for?

7) Ride a horse
-Just something I have always wanted to do . Horses are such beautiful animals, besides their smell.

8) Find my true love
– This has to be on everyone’s list. I don’t want to die unhappy and lonely. I want someone to cherish life with (:

9) Deliver at least 50 babies
-What better than bringing new life into the world? Nothing at all! Considering that I want to be an obstetrician I will probably deliver more than 50 babies, but hey you gotta start small.

10) Have the wedding I always dreamed of
– which is just a small wedding with immediate friends and family, nothing to big but at the same time extra special in my eyes.

11) See the sun rise
– I would love to lie on the beach and watch the sun rise with someone special to me. I have heard many stories about how it’s such a beautiful sight.

12) See the sun set
– just like the sun rise I would like to lie on a beach with someone that is special and watch the sun set. I would like to watch the sun rise and set all in the same day.

13) Have a garden
– I would love to have a garden in my backyard! In it I would grow cucumbers, squash, tomatoes, and maybe even some flowers.

14) Go to the place where the lights touch the earth
– when I was little I had a slight obsession with the Disney movie brother bear. It was in that movie that I had first seen the place where the lights touch the earth, otherwise known as the northern lights, and since then I have always wanted to witness It with my own eyes.

15) Visit great wall of china
– just for the experience, and the workout lol.

16) Watch the ball drop in Times Square and kiss someone at midnight
– cheesy right, but I’m a hopeless romantic what can I say? Plus it’s the perfect way to start the new year.

17) Visit all 50 states
– not only do I want to visit them I also want to learn atleast 25 things about each state. I feel I need to know more about my country.

18) Be an extra in a movie
– I don’t ever want to be famous, due to the lack of privacy. But I would love to be able to say that I was in a movie … So being and extra is perfect for me.

19) Visit Spain
– such a beautiful place based on all the movies, stories, and pictures that I have seen. I can’t wait to see it all with my own eyes!

20) Send a message in a bottle
– just something I think will be fun to do. The message would have to be something spectacular, even though it will have no purpose.

21) Shower under a waterfall
– a weak one of course. Just for the wonderful experience.

22) Write my will
– just something everyone should do before they die.

23) Donate money to charity and put my name on something
– maybe for a scholarship of something ? I’m not sure, I just want it to be something that will actually be helpful.

24) Kiss someone I’ve only just met
– that’s just the dare devil in me (;

25) Make love on the kitchen floor
– writing that kind of makes me chuckle. It really doesn’t have to be on the kitchen floor, anywhere odd will do.

26) Fly in hot air balloon
– I would love to float around and not have to look through a plane window to see the ground from the sky.

27) Receive a dozen roses
– just so that I can feel special and loved ❤

28) Throw a dart on a map and go where ever it lands
– isn't this such a good idea? Hopefully the place is actually safe and secure.

29) Learn sign language
– I have always wanted to learn sign language but never had someone to teach me. Plus, I really think I'm going to be deaf when I get old because I already have really bad hearing, so I want to be prepared.

30) Become a godmother
– I really don't have a legit reason, I just really want to be a godmother one day.

31) Ride a mechanical bull
– I'm a taurus, which is a bull, and I'm scared of falling so Id be holding on so tight I don't think I would fall. I just want to see if I can actually handle it. Plus, I've heard it's lots of fun!

32) Slow dance in the rain
– there goes the hopeless romantic in me again.

33) Carve mine and my soul mates initials in a tree
– so that when get older and have children we can show them the tree and tell them " this is OUR tree"

34) Save a life
– which I might have already done without knowing.

35) Count my blessings
– literally , I want to sit down and make a numbered list of all my blessings to see what I take for granted and learn to them cherish more.

36) Write down and highlight each day for a year
– I want to do this so that the following year i can read the corresponding days and see how might life has changed from that exact day just a year before.

37) Float in Dead Sea
– I just want to be able float on the water and read a book and not have to worry about "going under".

38) Learn about astrology
– just because I find it interesting, and always say that I want to learn more but never actually do.

39) Learn to play chess
– to keep my brain in check of course. Plus I heard it's really hard, and I would like to see what's so challenging about it.

40) Go to macys thanksgiving day parade
– every year on thanksgiving morning I watch the macys thanksgiving parade on tv and wish I was actually there in person because I know that it's not the same.

41) Learn to yodel
– just so that I can annoy everyone with me talent.

42) Go to a nude beach
– I would love to get a perfect tan! The only way for that to happen is to tan naked.

43) Write a letter to future self
– just a short letter to tell myself how much I love myself and how proud I am of myself . And how much I believe in me! A reminder for when I'm having a bad day.

44) Attempt to break a world record
– just to see if I can actually break the record. If I can that would be awesome, but even if I can't at least I tried.

45) Say yes to everything for a day
– inspired by the movie yes man. Hopefully it doesn't backfire.

46) Go on a road trip with no destination
– i just want to get in the car with one or two other people and just drive and see where it leads me.

47) Visit England
– so that I can hopefully pick up and accent … That's really the only reason.

48) Read the bible
– I don't really know much about the bible, but I would like to learn.

49) Find out how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop
– I can never actually test the theory because I always end up biting it. But I do want to know the exact answer.

50) Share life story
– sparing no details!! I want to sit down with anyone, could even be a stranger, like in the movie Forrest Gump and tell them everything that has happened in my life so far…. Any takers ?

As I accomplish these goals or add new ones I will keep you updated. Well I hope I didn't bore you to death . Thank you for reading . It really means a lot!!!!

Xoxoxo
Tajee

Undateable

“why don’t you ever date anyone?”

So I have a friend that keeps asking me why it is that I never date any one. In all honesty it’s such an annoying question because for one I honestly don’t know the true answer and for two I would LOVE to “date” but I’m just not as lucky as I wish to be.

I believe in true love and soul-mates. I don’t want to be dating someone just because. I want something special! I know I’m young but hey, I want what I want. I would love to experience “puppy love”. I would love to have someone stay up all night just to talk on the phone with me, despite their burning desire to sleep. I would love to have someone to send me cute text messages and tell me I’m beautiful. I would love to have someone to laugh at my corny jokes, and yes they can be very corny, just because they know how much it means to me. I would love to have someone to fight over dumb stuff with and to make it all better with a simple “I’m sorry” and kiss on the forehead. And maybe someday I will get that, but until then I will just continue to imagine how perfect it will be when I finally get it.

So friend, if you are reading this, just for you I’m going to explore some different possibilities of why it is I never date. Now that I think of it, the main reason that don’t date is because no one ever asks me to date them. But I guess there are other reasons to. Maybe the reason that I don’t date is because guys don’t find me dateable. Maybe it’s because I push people away, which I don’t mean to. Or maybe I have just set my standards to high. Or it could be that I can never tell when a boy likes me so I miss all the hints. Or maybe it’s because I’m so shy, and don’t speak up when I like someone. But honestly, I really don’t know. But hey , I tried to answer the question.

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And because I love you for reading this, here’s one of my corny jokes (: your welcome in advance (:
What do you call a pig that does karate?

A pork chop 😛

Xoxox
Tajee

Welcome “friends”

“truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget” -unknown

My name is Tajee , I am 17 years old and I recently decided that I wanted to start a blog. I am not trying to promote, prove, or preach about anything. I am here to just share my ideas and thoughts about the things that teenagers ( and myself) experience. I debated long and hard about what my first blog post would be about, when a close friend of mine , best friend actually, suggested that I write about how much I value our friendship,which is not exactly going to do, sorry friend. However, the topics kind of go hand in hand. So , what is the topic ? Such a great question, and guess what ?! I don’t plan on answering it , I don’t feel I have to.
A friendship worth valuing is a friendship in which you feel completely comfortable to be yourself. If your friendship is worth valuing you should be able to tell that person any and everything without worrying about being judged. A friendship worth valuing is a bond between people that compliment one another’s personalities, have many things in common, or a combination of both among many other things. But not all friendships are like this. If you find your self in a friendship that you can’t be your self around , feel judged and feel as if your “friend” is bringing you down rather than helping you become a better person, maybe you need to reconsider the friendship. Remember, people tend to judge you based on your friends, hence the saying “you are who you hang out with” which is probably not even a saying, but it should be. :p

Before I put and end to this post I just want to thank you for reading and invite you to continue reading. (: I plan on posting at least a couple times a week.

Xoxo
Tajee

~ if you have any ideas or suggestions on topics for later post please let me know via email, which is babygirltmj@yahoo.com. Yes I know I should probably make a more professional email address but there’s a reason behind the email address , but that’s a different story.